Today’s song was handpicked by the Holy Spirit. He literally woke me up this morning with this one. He pulled this one up to the front of the list because someone needs to be reminded today that God loves YOU and He’s waiting for YOU. When He said in His word that He would never leave you nor forsake you, He meant it! Even if you’ve messed up or have even given up, You’re not too far gone. He’s waiting to bless you far beyond what you can ask or even imagine.
This song is an oldie but goodie, That’s When He Bless Me by the L.A. Mass Choir from the Can’t Hold Back album. This song is another one that has made an appearance throughout my journey to strengthen and encourage me when I’ve felt alone and wanted to give up. Today, it’s reminding me of just how faithful God is when we just let go and let God!
So the story goes a little something like this…
No one believed me! Not family or my closest friend. Everyone continued on like nothing ever happened so I thought maybe I was crazy. Maybe it wasn’t such a big deal. Maybe I was overreacting. But I knew the truth in my heart. When you’re on this faith journey nothing can render you powerless like church hurt. No matter what the transgression, it leaves a cut so deep that your very life begins to escape you.
I felt like the walking dead. I was here physically but my spirit and soul were slowly dying. It had me questioning everything. My purpose, my relationships, and most importantly, my identity in Christ. Was God really speaking to me? Did I really hear His voice? Was He truly leading me? Because it was starting to feel a lot like I had been duped and all this was just a bunch of hogwash. I was left feeling naive, embarrassed, and ashamed.
I wanted to give up. It was as if everyone had moved on without me. I was the odd man out! That loneliness and tear in my soul left room for the enemy to jack me up–and he did! I made some decisions as a result of a desperate need to fill the gaping hole in my heart. And satan surely took every advantage in those moments to make me feel like I would never recover. I didn’t understand why I was under such attack. I just didn’t get it.
But God sent me a song! Oh, He sent me a song!! This song had a twofold effect on my life. It was both the PROMISE I needed to hold onto when I didn’t know if I could make it AND it became the TRUTH that I now live in and have lived in since the day I surrendered that burden to Him. Every lyric in this song resonates so much with me, but the words in the second verse are the words that I embody even today. Because against all odds I made a CHOICE! That choice was to trust God in the midst of the doubts, fears, questions, and mistakes because don’t get it twisted…I wasn’t perfect. I’ve made many mistakes along this journey. Some were even too shameful to utter. But that’s what keeps me in such humility and deep gratitude because despite my shortcomings and failings God still desires to use me. It keeps me at the foot of the cross, which I call the “Great Exchange,” where Christ exchanged His life for my raggedy and trifling sins.
What I didn’t know then that I know now, is that this was part of my process of “Becoming.” Because I made the choice to give my life to the Lord, flaws and all He promised to never let me go! And He’s never once left my side. I tell you there is nothing like being able to rejoice in the midst of all hell breaking loose in your life because you’re confident in the ONE WHO IS STANDING BY YOUR SIDE! But you’ve got to make the choice and be willing to let it go.
What the enemy meant for bad God absolutely turned for my good. I am a living witness to God’s faithfulness and His healing power both physically and spiritually. God has blessed me tremendously in so many ways for nothing more than believing He will do what He said He would do. (Hebrews 11:6)
Fam, God loves YOU so much! No matter what you’re facing or what you’ve done, God is saying “Bring it to me.” His word to someone today is just “Let it go.” You’ve been holding on so tightly to something that He wants to heal and deliver you from. You’ve been praying and seeking His face for answers but your answer is in your surrender. You’ve been afraid to let go because you’re not sure what things are going to look like after. You’re afraid of the unknown. You’re trying to figure out what you’re going to do. And guess what? It’s okay to have all those questions and more and still surrender. Your surrender to Him doesn’t mean you have to have it all together or have it all figured out. That’s the beauty of a relationship with Him and the power and depth of His divine love for YOU. All you have to do is come as you are, bruised, battered, torn, used, confused, skeptical, unsure, it doesn’t matter…He can handle it!
Well, it’s my prayer that this blesses whoever it was meant for because God is after your heart. And I am so excited for you because I’m a witness that He will do just what He said. Keep the faith and stay in the race!
Until next time…Be Blessed & Go Forth in Faith…Smooches😘😘