Today’s song is Called Me Higher by All Sons & Daughters from their Live CD.
The story goes a little something like this…
I was in the car leaving a dear friend’s apartment after helping her pack. She was moving in a few days to embark on the next leg of her journey, and I was super excited for her. As I was driving down the road headed home this song came on the radio. I had never heard it before and was enjoying the folky vibe of the melody when something happened. The words began to pierce my heart.
At this time in my life, though I was in a good place, I didn’t realize I had grown complacent. I had made great strides both in my relationship with God and personally. I was not the same person that arrived in Cali in 2008. It was like night and day. I was no longer the insecure, shy girl hiding in the shadows. I was now the confident, bold woman beaming from the inside out and ready to take on the world. But I had grown so comfortable in that new space that those little nudges in the spirit, which I used to be super sensitive to, were now going unnoticed.
God was calling me again! He wasn’t through with me yet. He desired me to BE the woman He called me to BE. Though he had brought me to a place of acceptance and love for who I was, it was time for me to evolve into the woman I was meant to be. But I had to be willing to go through the process of BEcoming. That day in the car, I was confronted with a choice. I had to decide if I would stay where I was, comfortable in my new space, or walk into what awaited me ahead.
What He was calling me to do and walk in scared me. It was everything the imposter version of myself told me I couldn’t do because I didn’t know enough or didn’t look the part, or didn’t have the resources. I wish I could say that every time the Lord called me to do something, I happily ran towards it with all my heart and obeyed speedily. Nope! I’d be completely lying. Sometimes it took weeks or months before I’d surrender. Transformation was not some magic wand, presto chango trick. It was a process and I had to be willing to submit to it!
In the spring of 2015, the Lord told me exactly who He had called me to be. It was the last day of a three-day evangelism conference at the church I was attending, and I went hungry and thirsty! He had already ignited the flame in my heart for ministry and others, but now I wanted to know what to do with it–how was He going to use me?
The conference was over, so I made a beeline to the restroom before the drive home. As I was standing in front of the mirror, there was a woman standing next to me who was drying her hands. She turned to me suddenly and exclaimed, “Who are you?” and began to prophesy. As she spoke, God began to download into my spirit whom He had called me to be. I stood there in a puddle of tears as His word spoken through her, overwhelmed and embraced me. Those words and that encounter are forever etched into my spirit.
When I heard this song playing on the radio on the drive home, I almost had to pull over. I was reminded of that day in the bathroom and I knew in my heart that it was time to move into my next season. It was time to answer the call. I didn’t want to hold on to who I was. I wanted to BE who He called me to BE. I didn’t want to stay in my comfortable, safe space. I wanted to move into the destiny that awaited me. I didn’t know how it would unfold or what the process would look like, but I was willing to follow Him. When I thought about where I was and where He had brought me from, there wasn’t a doubt that where He was leading me would be even greater.
My prayer is that you continue to move beyond what is safe and comfortable and answer the call to what’s next in your life! Whatever it is, no matter how big or small, I pray that it brings you closer to a more intimate relationship with Him and one step closer to who He has called you to BE.
Well, that’s all I have for you today! Tune in tomorrow for Day 16 of my 30-day challenge as we continue on this journey.
Until next time…Be Blessed & Go Forth In Faith…Smooches 😘😘